Before I drop a spiritual timeless truth the Lord has dropped in my soul, here’s an update on how I am doing…
What a difference time makes. To those who have been praying and checking in, I thank you. The depression has lifted completely. (Yes, “the” depression and not “my” depression as it is not mine nor will I ever claim it as mine.) I really cannot explain what happened, but really the process for events:
– An intervention by my godparents. They saw me spiraling out of control and waited for an appointed time to step in. They did. It was painful to admit I had been lying to them, myself about the severity of the situation, but something broke in me and off of me that night.
– I moved. I realized I had become saturated in consumerism. Instant gratification. I moved to a smaller (border-line crammed) apartment with cheaper rent. I went for a walk one night and saw a billboard that said, “A better quality of life has a new address.” I still don’t know what it was for, but I knew the Lord was speaking to me.
– I got my gym membership back. I am strapped financially. I know that. It’s a rough spot for me at this season in my life. However, I am convinced I and really everyone needs to have some type of outlet. A refuge, a place to regroup, rethink, recharge. Working out for me is that place.
– TGF turned 10 years old. The ministry I came to faith in and led turned 10 years old. I old classmates and friends I hadn’t seen in years. It was a refreshing reminder of how far I have come, of what the Lord has done in my life and that I was never in control of any of it.
– Spiritual Disciplines. I started spending more time meditating on the Scriptures and reading books again to challenge my thinking and put in new information, because I was in a new season, in a new place and needed a new mentor that had been speaking to an old God about an old challenge…called life.
I woke up one day…and realized, the depression was gone. To the glory of God and God alone!
Again, to those who read this, or prayed a prayer, or called/text, I thank you.
I finished reading The Pastor by Eugene Peterson and I am convinced hands down it was the best book I read this year, and it is in my top 10 list for best books of all time. His chilling words that address today’s pastor on the elimination of hurry and the need of deep spiritual development in any pastor in order to pastor well is a timeless truth that I will carry with me all the days of my life.
It led me to reread….
“Superficiality is the curse of our age. The doctrine of instant satisfaction is a primary spiritual problem. The desperate need today is not for a greater number of intelligent people, or gifted people, but for deep people.” – Richard J. Foster in Celebration of Discipline
I think I realized what this year has been about. Like always, I was in a hurry to get ahead of God. Financially, vocationally, professionally. I forgot to enjoy the journey, not rush and enjoy the moment. The Lord led me to the desert in order to get me to slow down…so He could then lead me beside quiet waters and restore my soul.
As always, I thank You for getting my undivided attention.
Where do we go from here?
This month, I am:
– Reading the book of Philippians (Meditating on 1 chapter a week)
– Practicing the Discipline of slowing down
Join me! Let’s follow Jesus together and resist the urges of the culture that surrounds us that most assuredly lead us down a path of destruction.
I love you.